A beauty queen today, but life was never easy.

 

So here I am. Living the life I always DREAMED about. When I say dreamed about, I mean DREAMED ABOUT. My life was nothing like a fairy tale growing up. As I wear a crown on my head today, and it is such an honor, I just don’t feel right wearing it another day without telling everyone where I came from.

So, here is my story.

My name is Jessica Love Buehler. I may be a "beauty queen" today, but life for me was never easy.  

In fact, it was awful.

Fatherless, I longed to be loved by a man. Yet, this left me running from one man to another, heart-broken in the end and numb.

I was not happy at home and ran away often. I ran away multiple times and I was such a mess. So lost and so broken.

Although I did not know God at 15, God knew me. He came to me and breathed life into me as I lay on the bathroom floor, overdosed on drugs. I felt a holy presence in the middle of a crisis. I mumbled my first prayer that would not be my last, “God, if you are real, and this is you, please give me another chance, I do not want to come into your presence all messed up on drugs… let me live and I will be sober when I finally meet you face to face. Please God, please!” The Lord answered my prayer and I was given another chance at life.

            A seed was planted as Love touched me that day, yet it was not the end. After living sober for quite some time, I was overwhelmed with the pain of all the scars. Covering my pain I ran to other addictions and self-destructive behaviors which left me at rock bottom by 18 years of age.

And then it happened. It was unreal. God touched my life in a way I can't even fathom. He opened my eyes to truth. He set me free. He started healing me. He was restoring my life from the dark pit that I was in. He filled my life with joy. He spoke promises to me that I still hold onto today. He showed me my value and worth as His daughter. This was the beginning of something beautiful.

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11